When this song came on my iPod today, it made me cry. My littlest child, my baby daughter (who isn't really much of a baby any more at age 7) was just diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes. You may think you have guessed now why this song made me cry. But there's more to the story. Read on.
Audrey's middle name is Joy. True, we had already decided on that "J" name, to complete the pattern in our kids' middle names, but her's fit. My epidural had made me quite comfortable in the hospital, and so when the nurse checked to see if I was ready to deliver my 3rd baby, she was a little panicked. Audrey was more than ready.
I laughed at her urgency, and the nurse became even more serious. "Don't do that. You have to wait for the doctor," she said.
"You mean, I can just laugh this one out?" I joked. Then I continued to laugh as the doctor hurried over, and Audrey made a quick appearance.
Easy. This was supposed to be an easy child.
When the nurse handed her to me, I was thrilled. My body still had plenty of adrenaline. She asked me if I wanted a soda or something. I laughed again, knowing it would be tough to get to sleep as it was. So I replied, "No thank you. No sugar for me tonight."
My words reminded me of one of my favorite songs, sung by The Guess Who. So I sang my very first lullaby to my baby girl. No Sugar Tonight. Not exactly a traditional lullaby.
Since then, I have kept the song on my iPod, and it has always reminded me of Audrey's birth. Now, it reminds me of the new world we are entering. But it made me think, both about her disease and about life in general.
No sugar. It sounds like a rule. For me, it would be a nearly impossible rule to follow due to my sweet tooth. I have since learned that diabetics CAN have sugar; they just need to modify how much they have and balance it with the amount of insulin they take to counteract it. Too much sugar, without enough insulin to balance it, can make a body very sick. My daughter was in the ICU of the hospital in a condition called Diabetic Ketoacidosis (DKA) due to the amount of sugar in her body that was not controlled by insulin.
"No sugar" sounds like a rule. But really it is a protective measure. It protects her from going into DKA again.
God gives us certain rules as well. Some of them are as impossible to follow as it would be for me to follow the "no sugar" rule. But just as it is difficult to live a life with no sugar, (There's a lot of sugar in fruit, and we really do need fruit.) it is also also impossible to follow all of God's rules perfectly. Thankfully, God has provided the insulin we need as well. When it comes to following His laws, Jesus is the insulin we need to keep our lives in control.
The song will probably always make me cry. I no longer cradle the newborn and sing to her. My little girl also will no longer have as normal a life as we expected. But God knows. And He has provided for us.
Okay, aside from this group's really cool name - (Manafest - like a feast of manna) - I really like this song. I prefer the version I have on my iPod to this one, though, that doesn't have the overdubbed screaming.
No Plan B. At some point we all need to make our decision. We need to choose our belief about the afterlife. It can't wait because the end is too uncertain. We can't choose not to choose, because our choice affects how we live.
You can choose to believe that there is nothing in the afterlife. But if you do, you had better be sure about that, because you don't get a back up plan. If you choose to believe there is no God - then you come face to face with Him - of course you are going to change your mind. But that isn't faith. Faith is being sure of what you hope for and CERTAIN OF WHAT YOU DO NOT SEE. (Hebrews 11:1, emphasis mine)
This song is just a reminder that your choice is a one-time deal. There are no doors at the end. Behind Gate #1 is simply this, "Well done, My good and faithful servant," or "Depart from me, I never knew you." There is no Gate #2; there is no Plan B.
You Don't Own Me.
So who does? You might be surprised at the answer.
I Cor. 6:19-20 "Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies. You were bought at a price; do not become slaves of human beings."
I think we like to think that we are our own person, that we can do as we will to make ourselves happy. But this is not God's will. We were designed to be His, to give Him glory and praise. We can do that, but not on our own! Our own spirits only want to make ourselves happy, not praise God. So we can only glorify Him through the power of the Holy Spirit within us.
This song talks to the rest of the world, most especially those who fire insults at Christians. We get a lot of that these days. But it is a reminder that those in the world can do no damage to us. God owns all of us, and controls our future. If we submit to Him, it will be to our benefit. I love these lyrics:
"Go ahead, put a target on my forehead
You can fire, but you got no bullets."
There is nothing that the world can fire at us that can affect our eternity. They're firing blanks. It might give us a scare, but does nothing to damage us eternally.
I, for one, am glad once again that I'm not in control. Lord knows how much more power God has in the fight.
"It's hard to breathe when you that know you're not alive.
Hard to live, hard live, when you know you're dead inside."
How are those for some attention-grabbing lyrics? I have set a goal for myself to write a novel that starts as intensely as that song.
It makes you pay attention and ask yourself questions:
"How can it be possible to breathe when you're not alive?"
"What do they mean, dead inside?"
And that's when you take a look at the spiritual side of it. There's an old saying, "Born once, die twice; or born twice, die once." In other words, you must be born again to escape the death that is brought onto all mankind by sin.
Not everyone is aware of this. People are walking around without their second re-born life, not aware that a second death could get to them first. They can't breathe easily because they don't know.
On the other hand, it's much easier to live this life, when you know you will be moving into a life of peace and ease when these troubles are gone.
"Father, please forgive me."
A whole lot easier than, "Father, Please forgive them."
We want to hold onto the right of being wronged.
But who was the One we first remember having said, "Father, forgive them"?
Others in the Old Testament, such as Joshua, David, and Daniel asked for forgiveness of others, but Jesus's case was different. It was much more personal. In the other cases, saints prayed for the wrongs committed by Israel. Yes, they were devastating, and I don't doubt the men who prayed were broken by the sins caused by others.
But when Jesus prayed, He was literally being tortured and killed with anger and hatred for the "blasphemy" of saying He was doing the very thing that He indeed was doing. Being sinless, he had cause more than anyone to spew wrath upon them for their wrongs. Instead, He interceded to His Father to overlook it.
How can we do that? We have such a desire for the wrong to be made right. How can we overlook it and let justice turn her head?
Only by the help of the Spirit. But it must be done to show Christ to those around us. We can astound no one by our own love. But God's love will floor the nations. Be His conduit.
In my opinion, one of the best Third Day songs ever. Because of its powerful lyrics, I actually find it to be one of the most meaningful songs from anyone. To me, anyway. The heart of this song is remembering what was given to us. Something that we desperately needed, and didn't even know it. Something that saved our eternity. While we were blindly headed for hell, Jesus changed our course.
That's what he gave. This song helps us to recognize that and pushes us to the next step. God does not ask for anything because there is nothing we can give that would be acceptable. But that shouldn't stop our desire to do something for Him anyway. Just because my husband married me doesn't mean I want him to stop showing me he loves me. I feel so honored when he gets me a box of chocolates. And if it were in his heart to give me chocolates every day -- just because that's how much he loves me -- well, you know I wouldn't be complaining.
My favorite line, however, is "Were I to leave, where else would I go?" which echoes Peter's rely to Jesus. Because in reality, we have no choice, as Peter (and Mac Powell) note. But even when there is no choice, and we choose Him, He is blessed. Even though he already married me, and I know he isn't going anywhere, I still love to hear my husband tell me that there is no one else he would rather marry than me.
I would love to give God all I can. It will never be enough. But it will be as precious to Him as my children's artwork on the fridge is to me.
I'm being broken right now, this very moment. I am a very orderly person (so laughs the rest of the CDO community. If you don't know what CDO is, ask me.)
I have a to-do list for every day of the week. Monday (today) is for going on Twitter, not for updating any blogs. But this routine started crumbling last week, and it has just been breaking down more and more since then, doing the wrong things on the wrong days. Driving me insane.
Why is it happening? (I won't say I'm doing it on purpose.) I feel I am being broken down, bit by bit. My walls of consistency had a very strong mortar. And apparently, it needed to be chipped away so I could learn to get out of my comfort zone.
Staying in my comfort zone keeps me too reliant on myself and my routines. Leaving that safety net, I am blind to possible results. I can't see what will happen, so I must fix my eyes on something else besides myself. Like, maybe God?
The words here explain a promise.
"I'll pick you up, won't let you fall
I'll build your trust and it won't hurt at all"
We just need to trust and believe.
I'm not very good at waiting. Just ask the "advisors" on my softball team who insist I take the first strike. Ha! In everything I do, I almost always find myself saying, "I might as well do it now." And I literally have a fear of procrastination. I'm not sure what I will think will happen if I put something off to the last minute, but I don't want to find out. In college, I was often rewarded in this behavior when I completed syllabi of work by Thanksgiving or spring break so that I had nothing left to do in the semester but play racquetball.
But that isn't the focus of this song. Whereas my attitude was a "let's get it over with" one, this song reminds us that we can have our eternity start now. No need to be a glum Christian. He has saved us, which is cause to rejoice. So let's get the party started! Praise Him now, and you will be in great practice when you see him face to face in heaven. :)
Just one of my all time favorite songs by an awesome band. Now is a great time to be thankful for all that you have and blessed by what you have coming. Enjoy!
I love this song! It's about how everything changes inside us when Christ comes in, but our natural fleshly tendencies fight against what is good. BUT, it also seems to fit well in a story (or four) about people who think they are people and then are told supernaturally that they aren't and will soon be going to war. Hmm. I think I know a series about that.
Everything's about to change...
PS- The song totally rocks beside the meaning too.
PPS- I chose it for today because TFK is going to be in Lancaster this weekend and I am really thinking about going to see them again.